2019 update

So im waiting on my keyboard to come in so I can really blog. It is so hard to do on a phone!

I feel like my Crohn's is the same. Same diarrhea, same pain. No change. My spondylitis is so bad. My sciatica is always hurting. Stelara isnt helping. I go to physical therapy once a week and it helps but after a day, im back in excruciating pain. But ill accept that day. It's better than nothing! Dry needling and massage is a god send. I highly recommend needling or acupuncture. You can actually immediately feel the difference! I get severe pain in my legs and this helps me be able to walk better. I love it!

As soon as my keyboard comes in, my posts should be much better and frequent!

When You Live With Pain

I have been diagnosed with spondyloarthritis. And i cannot sleep! Even though im on ambien for my insomnia, the pain is relentless and i get no more than a few hours of broken sleep a night. I'm starting to get beyond frustrated with the fact my meds havent been preauthorized yet and my dr won't call me back.

When i saw him the 1st time, he asked my pain level. I told him a 10 because it was. I could barely move, walk, sit. I cant even bend over. He said no a 10 means you wouldnt be sitting here talking to me right now.

Hold on. Let me tell you something! For over a decade, i have been poked and prodded, been through chemo, a stem cell transplant, every test imaginable, felt like i was giving birth to my intestines 15-25 times a day, was malnourished, had multiple picc lines, almost died twice, had surgery, have given my self injections for years, broken multiple bones, had my bones drilled in to 3 times and God knows what else. I am not a stranger to pain. Just because you can't read it on my face, doesn't mean it doesn't exist. It just means I've been through Hell already so I know how to walk through fire.

Please don't underestimate my pain, based on my facial expressions.  You haven't live through what I have.

My Back

Omg my back is killing me. I keep trying to work out but it's making my back so much worse. It's hard because I want to lose weight so badly and taking any break affects my self esteem. But i can't make my arthritis worse either. I have to call my doctor...again...about my medicine. Im going to talk to scheduling and make them leave a message because i left a voicemail on the nurse and doctor line almost 2 weeks ago and no call back yet. Like im not in excruciating pain smh.

Spondyloarthritis

So i have been having some serious back pain on top of my normal joint pain so I went to see my rheumatologist. He diagnosed me with spondyloarthritis. That is basically spinal arthritis. Im going to be giving myself shots twice a week of Acthar. I'm waiting for insurance approval now....ugh! I'll keep you posted!