The ambien doesn't help me sleep. I'm basically just trying to control the pain and upset stomach right now. I was sick last week. It was very upsetting to me. I tried to have lunch with Mom and ended up leaving because I was nauseas. I started throwing up in the car on the way home, in a plastic bag. I had to drive 30 minutes with vomit on my clothes and I have no idea why I was so sick. I hate that. The week of Thanksgiving was tough for me. I could hardly walk the pain was so intense. Elyshia (my best friend) had her wedding Nov. 23. I made it through the day, barely. I just want to be able to enjoy days like that..not limping around, bound to the bathroom, crying alone in pain so I don't ruin everyone else's day. I'm just counting down the days til Chicago. I pray everyday they'll be able to help me without surgery.
I'm still trying to be positive though and I'm very excited about the holidays. Merry Christmas! (just in case I don't make it back to blog before then!)
