I am creating this blog to help keep my family and friends updated on my health. I think of all of you daily, I just unfortunately haven't had the energy to call everyone lately. I know all of you understand and I appreciate that :)
Lately, it's been tough. For the last year and a half I've battled the pain, the bleeding, the fatigue, the diarrhea, the fevers, etc. alone. God brought me back to the upstate for a reason. He brought me close to family and friends for a reason. I need help. That has been very difficult for me to accept. I hate the thought that I might actually be too sick to do it all myself. I'm now experiencing daily nausea and vomitting, i don't know if it's the medicines (that don't work) or the Crohn's...probably both. The pain has gotten so bad that there are days I can't stand or walk. The pain gets so bad I vomit everyday, regardless of the nausea. I'm tired. I'm still working full time but I leave early alot. That makes me feel guilty and that scares me. It scares me that I think this is normal and that I should feel guilty for leaving work because I'm throwing up in a trashcan behind the register. Is that what I have to look forward to forever? I'm getting very frustrated. Reality just set in last week that I'm actually SICK. I want my life back.
I'm waiting to hear back from Northwestern Memorial about a stem cell transplant now. I've heard amazing things about the results. If they don't think I'm a candidate, then I'll need to see a surgeon. Surgery will be unavoidable at that point. I should know something any day now.
My Aunt Charlotte and Uncle Jeff have been taking care of me. They are an absolute blessing. Without them, there would be A LOT more suffering..thanks guys :)
