Crohn's VS Me

I feel like this flare up is beating me and I refuse to let it win. I'm in a difficult position.  My fiance has court in the morning,  2 hrs away. Crohnies know how bad that is. For those of you who don't,  long drives with long distances between bathrooms are the most dreaded tasks. He supports me and my illness so much, even when it inconveniences him and I am always there for him. He wants me there so bad for support and I want to be there. But my Crohn's wants something else. I don't know what to do. I dont want the crohns to win. Its not fair. Im going to do my best to go with him. I cant let gim down, hes not sick, why should he have to suffer the consequences of MY disease??? I dont even care about myself and how im feeling. I only care about being there for him. So im sending a message to my crohns. ...BEHAVE! YOU WON'T WIN THIS ONE!!!

Please say a prayer tonight that it calms down enough for one day, just one day!!

Doctor Visit

Ive been cramping for days and cant stay out of the bathroom, when I actually make it in time that is. They've decided on definitely doing a colonoscopy or a partial one to check out my sigmoid where the crohns has always been and where im having the pain at. This is mainly to reduce the risks associated with the actual procedure.

As always, ill keep you posted!

And a special thank you to my fiance for putting up with me being in bed all week. I know he's bored and its not easy on him either but he's being super supportive!

Rough Night

I had a rough night. I was up sick all night and barely made it to the bathroom in time. The urgency is getting worse and now im noticing some intestinal bleeding.  I have a gi appointment Thursday.  I think a colonoscopy is a good option right now to get in and see what's going on before it gets worse.  Im not a slow progresser. My intestines love to go from 0 to 60 pretty fast.