im sorry i havent posted in so long..its hard to keep up with my posts when im having to use my phone to manage the blog..no internet at my house hd
the c diff is back..on antibiotics again and this time they are making me soo sick i hate this...
i kinda knew it was back because the entire week after i got married including new years was spent throwing up and no medicine helps when c diff takes over. i can honestly admit this is all taking a toll on my emotions and ive been very depressed lately in a way that i cant explain or control. i should have listened to my friend elyshia months ago when she felt the time was coming where id have a difficult time dealing with all of this. too bad shes managed to disappear when i need her now more than ever.i miss our friendship. northwestern said the pathologists rediagnosed me with the biopsies from 07 and they want to re-evaluate with more current biopsies..pray theyll give me answers soon. i dont know what id rather have..ulcerative colitis cured by surgery but risking them getting in there and taking too much and ill have to live with a colostomy bag permanently and of course theres the temporary bag and scars...or crohns and have the stem cell transplant and risking it not be successful.
well maybe ill post again soon!
